It’s raining today. Outside the air is lost in the heavy weight of coastal fog. The sky broken and gray, bruised from yesterday. December is fleeting. The onslaught of holiday festivities and laced up boots press down on the fast forward button of the day. In another blink I’ll be residing in Colorado Springs. I’ve already signed the lease and received my brass key.
I’ve made a decision. I’m officially a Monthly Blogger. Updating by the month is what is most intuitively right for me at this time. I’ll probably bump up the blogging again after I’m settled from my move, but right now I’m focusing on FIY revision #2 and enjoying my last weeks in soggy southern California with my family.
Writing is always such a learning experience. Every draft is different, every revision an entirely new process, like hiking in the mountains for the first time. My mind is a lot more soothed and steady since I last blogged. Remember? I wasn’t working on FIY, only writing prose and poetry. I wasn’t blocked. I simply wasn’t ready to dip into the revision. It took another week of scribbling in my mole skinned journal before I was. But then the gun went off and the mad frenzy began.
Now I’ve combined the two: my novel writing and the tilted “mind’s dribble” (as dear Shola called it.) Breathing is such an easier task when I’m the midst of a revision. Life is good. I don’t snap at my family as much, and that is always a beautiful thing. The occasional rain is also very calming to me. I’m not a sun girl. I like wearing layers, seeing my breath when I walk outside, and hearing the curse of winter’s wind. Storms are realer, so raw, compared to blue skies and happy weather.
The next time I blog I’ll be writing from Colorado. I hope everyone has a lovely holiday! Stay warm. Drink lots of tea and gingerbread coffee, spend sometime with your family. 
Hug a tree.
I’ll leave you with a quote. In all honesty, autumn was rather rough and jagged. But this quote reminded me that it’s okay. It’s all a part of the grand journey. I made it through the different pains and I’ll make it through whatever else in store for me.
“When we can accept all of life’s contradictions, when we can comfortably flow between the banks of pleasure and pain, experiencing them both and getting caught in neither, then we are free.” – Deepak Chopra
Until next time.
Nice quote! I hope you have a safe move. Drive safely!
Comment by Lizzi — December 11, 2009 @ 10:12 pm
That’s so strange that you feel so much happier/more social with your family when you’re in the midst of a revision! If I was in the same position, I’d be constantly lost in my story and end up withdrawing even more than usual.
I suppose if I were to become a writer exclusively, as opposed to just dabbling in it, I’d be the type that locks themselves in a room in an attic somewhere and demand absolute silence while I write away.
… Actually, that’s EXACTLY how I act every time I update my blog, minus the attic bit, so I suppose this isn’t far from the truth. xD;
The Monthly Blogger idea sits well with me! Of course, I’d love to read more entries from you, but of course, your novels come first.
Oh! And I meant to ask you — Are you going to be in school when you move, or do you have a job lined up …? Or are you simply going to write full-time and continue waiting for a response from your Über Important Person? xP And are you going to pay half-and-half for rent with your roommate …?
Sorry if I seem nosy, I’m just curious about how it’s all going to work — Especially considering I’ve yet to move out myself. x.X;
At any rate, best of luck with the move — I hope everything goes smoothly for you! ^^
Comment by Mallory — December 12, 2009 @ 2:47 am
I have noo idea when I’m ungrounded :/ My mother never updates me on such things! Gahh
I really enjoyed your quote
I hope you have a safe move, and that your revising goes well
Comment by Heather — December 12, 2009 @ 11:56 pm
oh! and p.s. I like your name as well
Comment by Heather — December 12, 2009 @ 11:58 pm
I haven’t even bothered to contact the girl because I’m sure it will be a fruitless effort, and I haven’t heard back from her host yet. :/ I’ll probably just put her on my Wall of Shame for a while.
Mm, gingerbread. My family has a gingerbread train set that we have to put together.
Comment by Carissa — December 13, 2009 @ 7:29 am
Thank you for the comment; it was very much appreciated! I decided to take photographs on that day, firstly because of the cobweb on my driveway that you and Mallory seemed to like so much! Secondly, because it was abnormally misty; as a Harry Potter fan, I like to think the Dementors were breeding. But that’s just me ;D
Your blogs are so beautifully written; it’s almost poetic in its prose and I really admire that. My blog is literally written without thinking, that’s why some of them are littered with typos; I don’t even bother proof-reading. I go for the more ‘raw’ style of writing, cause apparently I’m funnier if I don’t think about what I’m saying. Whereas you construct your words wonderfully, and I admire this
Sorry, waffling on now ;D
Hope you are well!
K x
Comment by Kayleigh — December 13, 2009 @ 11:27 am
It’s completely understandable that blogging once a month is good for you. Some people just don’t have the time. Don’t worry. (:
Thanks for your comment!
Family drama is terrible, but I’ve been used to this since I was little so I wouldn’t even really call it drama anymore. Thanks for the luck! I need it.
Comment by Tiffany — December 13, 2009 @ 2:55 pm
it’s raining for you too!
have you tried carob? it’s not a chocolate REPLACEMENT by any means, but i really love it for what it is, and could almost reconcile myself to giving up chocolate as long as i had carob!
Comment by Nora — December 13, 2009 @ 7:39 pm
I hope you have a wonderful next month or so – until I hear from you! There’s nothing wrong with being a monthly blogger.
I wish your family well and hope you have a good holiday season as well. I’m glad you are still so deep into your writing.
I’ll be having coffee (most likely iced, because it’s summer!) and hugging a lot of trees. :3
People seem to think that religion somehow makes your focus on one belief and believe in nothing else. I guess those people themselves are too narrow-minded to notice.
I hope everything is alright with your family! Sometimes it’s hard to fit in and I know I don’t get along that well with mine.
Thank you! I get the results on Thursday – I’m sure I passed, but I hope I pass well. :O
Comment by Georgina — December 14, 2009 @ 12:25 am
HIII HEATHER.
Just popping by because I saw your other comment! Thank you for your comment on my layout. I’m glad you like it!
I haven’t been listening to Fightstar for very long but I love their music. Mercury Summer is my favourite.
Thank you! :3 Yeah, it feels good to have it over and done with! *eager for results*
AHAA, you should be jealous.
Just kidding. Ahh, but I have to admit, I’m a real stalk when it comes to him. *blushes*
I hope you’re going well~ <333
Comment by Georgina — December 14, 2009 @ 1:08 pm
Rain! Rain! Rain!
Who doesn’t love rain?
Oh. Right. My Dad. XD
Good luck on your move, Heather!
Comment by Natalie — December 14, 2009 @ 6:49 pm
I’m happy you don’t snap at your family as much, family are truly a blessing (well some of them).
Moving so soon, it only seemed like yesterday when you mentioned you was moving! Jesus Heather, where has the time gone? It just seems to fast-forward. I’d rather it fast forward though during this period in my life, I’ve been to preoccupied to notice the date rapidly changing. SO when you say you’re a monthly blogger I feel like I read a recent blog from you yesterday.
You wrote something I completely connected to then. “seeing my breath when I walk outside,” This seriously keeps me going, the old weather permitting me to see that I am still alive. Still here. I think that’s why I smoked, seeing my breathe, knowing everything is real.
I wish you all the best for your move because I feel you truly deserve luck and happiness. I am sending you well-being! LOL. I would send you some seeds to your house for a hose plant. We give those to people here when they move in. Like a gift.
I am deadly excited for you.
And thank you for your hug, it’s warming my soul. <3
Comment by Shola — December 14, 2009 @ 11:36 pm
You’re welcome! Hmm, you could just be in the writing mood or something! XD
It happens, it happens. Sometimes I want to hold off doing something but then I suddenly feel like it. :O
Haha, not very fun at all. It’s been cooler lately but in the early days of December, it was scorching hot.
Mercury Summer is definitely my favourite by them! I’ve been into Marianas Trench lately, as I mentioned – that’s all. I rarely go out looking for new artists.
I will share! <3
Awww, thank you! I haven't had miso soup in a few weeks; it's been to hot to have soup. D:
Comment by Georgina — December 15, 2009 @ 12:56 am