Fighting the Blues.

July 9th, 2009

It’s another Thursday. Happy thankful Thursday. Yay! Right?

I don’t remember who made this comment, but a while back a friend of mine mentioned that my blog posts are consistently upbeat and hopeful. She asked me if I ever feel down, if I ever just break down and fall…

My answer? By the hour.

I recently wrote about this in my private LiveJournal, but I’m an emotional wreck. I don’t mean this in a negative way, nor do I mean it in a positive way. Quite simply, my mood plummets and flies at the speed of light. Ask my family. One moment, I’ll be giddy with elation and in the next I’ll be in a lonely corner with death on my shoulders. I have days where even my closest friends and the darkest of chocolates can’t break my case of the blues. And you know what? That’s okay.

I’m human.

Today has been a rough one. Nothing tangible happened, but for unexplainable reasons, my heart is heavy and my mood is low. I wrote, practiced yoga, talked with a good friend for over an hour, meditated on my highly anticipated Ohio trip next week, and even made vegan rice krispie treats… Yet I’m still hurting.

So, in case any one else is wondering if I ever struggle to stay strong and on top of depression: Yes. Yes, I do… But I get by. I grasp onto the knowledge that the hopelessness I’m feeling will eventually pass and that maybe my next moment will be brighter. Because, and this is something I know, there is always happiness ahead.

It is this touch of wisdom that I’m thankful for today.

“For the warrior, the experience of the sad and tender heart is what gives birth to fearlessness.”
~Chögyam Trungpa

Under: depression, gratitude, life, rambling, vegan — @ 8:02 pm

Comments (12)

A Secret.

April 4th, 2009

If you follow me on Twitter, you know that I’ve been battling an (oh- so) deathly illness for nearly a full week now. It wasn’t until this afternoon that I was able to get in and see a doctor. While I thought it was just an average cold gone sour, it turns out I have a severe case of strep throat.

I feel massive guilt towards my poor roommate, who has put up with my consistent coughing day and night for far too long. But then she is lucky, it could have been much worse. While over the counter medications made me loopy and irritable, they didn’t do much for the hacking. At some point over the weekend, I began searching for homemade coughing remedies.

A few did absolutely nothing. Some soothed my throat as I was sleeping. But only one actually calmed my coughing down. I’m considering it an ultimate secret recipe! One that you should treasure for ever and always… Because seriously, this concoction made this last week of ultimate hell so much easier.

It doesn’t taste too good. I’ll warn you there. And you may have to take a few deep breaths while you drink it, but it so worth it. I promise. Try and use organic ingredients, because I’m a firm believer that it does make a difference.

Heather’s Oh-So Secret Cough Remedy:
1/4 teaspoon cayenne pepper.
1/4 teaspoon ground ginger.
1 tablespoon honey.
1 tablespoon apple cider vinegar.
2 tablespoon filtered water.

Drink up and expect relief!

Under: health, recipes, vegan — @ 6:37 pm

Comments Off