Thankful Thursday.

July 2nd, 2009

It doesn’t look like I’ll be finding June’s blog entries… and you know what? That’s okay. I’m moving on and pushing forward. Losing a few random posts is definitely not the end of the world, nor something I’ve never dealt with before.

I’m feeling significantly better today. Still a bit queasy and off, but oh so healthy and alive. Is it weird that I’m often grateful for illness? Because once I recover and feel better, I find I have so much more gratitude for my life and health. I wrote an entry a few weeks ago (yes, it’s one of the lost blogs) about my numerous blood disorders, and I remember I had such difficulty writing it. I felt like I was complaining. I was sure I sounded selfish… because truly, I’m blessed.

I have a body that can walk (and sometimes run!), lift, stretch, and breathe. My body does so much work for me. It never gives up, never lets me down. Sure, it has its flaws… but look at me, I’m still alive. I guess after a week of being confined to my bed, I’m feeling grateful today.

sunset

Anyway, a good friend of mine is flying in from Canada tomorrow (well, technically Utah, but whatever). I haven’t seen Dalia since last March, so I’m beyond thrilled for her visit. It’s funny. She saw my temporary home of the Bay Area and now she’ll be seeing my childhood home of Orange County.

While I’m definitely not as proud as Southern CA as I am of Northern CA, I’m still excited to share it with her. It’ll also be fun to bring a Canadian along for my Independence Day celebrations! :P

Have a beautiful day everyone!



The Joys of Moving.

July 1st, 2009

Well, it’s been quite a week. As countless folk have noticed, my online presence has been a bit of mess. Basically, I moved hosts. The old company I was previously under was having issues, so the incredible Kya let me move on over to her place on the web.

So, I moved. The transfer in itself was simple (thanks to the help of Hannah), but Wordpress made the whole experience rather ridiculous. I’m not really sure what went wrong, as Hannah has been the one working behind the scenes, but it caused me to lose all of my old entries and comments. In result, we’ve spent the last week manually reposting whatever old entries we could find through old files. (The many comments are lost forever. *sobs*) Sounds fun, right? XD

While I would’ve loved to spend a full day getting everything back up and looking pretty, I couldn’t. I had relatives in town over the weekend, a book launch party for Teresa Burrell, an overnight stay in Long Beach, and now I’m been battling yet another flu. In result, everything has been rather messy.

Anyway, the point of this muttering blog is to say I’m not going anywhere. I’m just trying to get my head back on straight and get organized. I’m hopeful that I’ll be able to find all of June’s entries, but it’s not looking promising. Also, I pray the annoying white text doesn’t bug everyone as much as it bugs me. :( That’s another kink we’re trying to straighten out.

Alright. Back to falling in and out of sleep in attempt to regain some health!

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The Brother Strikes Again.

May 25th, 2009

Flinging my still-damp hair out of my eyes and zipping my hoodie up to my chin, I bolted out of my car to the front door before any of my neighbors could catch a glance at ridiculous appearance. Maddie had called from a friend’s house that morning, insisting that I picked her up ASAP. I’d just jumped out of the shower, and being the oh-so gracious older sister I am, I threw on the first dress I saw and left instantly.

Now, Madeline stood by the front door, arms folded against her chest and her face twisted in irritation. “Heather, the door’’s locked.”
I froze. “What?”
“Did you forget to turn off the fire-lock when you left the house?” She rolled her eyes.
“I didn’t even know the fire-lock was on!” I said, following her as she made her way to the garage and punched in the code. As the garage door rolled open, I shook my head. “Um, this way won”t work. All the doors are locked.”
“What do you mean all the doors are locked? We never lock any of the side doors! We never even lock the front door!” Madeline said, eyes wide.
I lock the doors! Especially with just Grant and I home… I wanted us to be SAFE!”
She shook her head. “So, we’re locked out, and Grant’s probably still asleep…”
We both froze at the realization that our getting inside rested in the hands of our sneaky and evil little thirteen-year-old brother. Stepping out of the garage, we looked up at his bedroom window. The shutters were closed shut.

“GRANT!” I screamed. “GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANT! We’re locked out! LET US IN!”
The shutters remained shut. Muttering under my breath, I pulled my giant coin-filled wallet out of my bag. The first time I chucked it, the wallet merely hit the top of the garage. The second time it hit his window with a loud bang, and then landed on the window sill.

“Brilliant, Heather.” Maddie chuckled. “Real brilliant.”
“Oh, no…” I said, eyes wide, as the shutters slowly flipped open.

Then, still hiding his face from view, Grant slid the window up. Much to my horror, his long arm gradually snuck out from his room and snatched my wallet from the sill. And then, in one quick second, the window slammed down and the shutters shut.

“GRAAAAAAAAAAANT!” I bellowed, ignoring the glares from the two plastic OC women walking past my house. “If you take anything out of my wallet, you WILL be in MASSIVE TROUBLE!”
Hands on her hips, Maddie sighed. “Now what?”
“Um,” I paused. “Well, um… Fine! We’re going to STARBUCKS, Grant! Without you! BYE!”

Madeline and I ran back into the car, speeding to the little Albertson’s Starbucks. After moaning about our bedhead appearances and finding a bit of change in the glove department, we rushed inside. We returned to the car with three drinks. I was certain that a mocha frappuccino would earn our way back into the house.

It did, eventually. After waving the frothy cup up at the window and then making a show of Madeline pretending to drink it, he rushed down the stairs and threw open the front door. Despite his attempts to grab the drink and keep us outside, I managed to push my way in. Oh, yes, so sweet it was to be back inside.

Granty, Granty,” I drew in a sip of my hot black coffee, my eyes sharp on Grant’s. “Oh, dear little boy, how foolish you are. After the whole scare-Heather fest, I was going to go easy on you… But now… Oh, goodness… Now, I will revenge. BIG TIME, MISTER!”"
He laughed, dancing with his frappuccino. “Ha, whatever.” And then he skipped away, as I laughed my evil laugh.

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On a Windy Frightful Night…

May 23rd, 2009

I dedicate this post to my miso soup buddy, Georgina. ;)

It was just past midnight when my black lab began to growl. Half asleep, I rolled over in bed, shushed her with a pat on the head, and proceeded to try and drift off. Five minutes later, Belle growled again. The rumbling sound vibrated my bed and stifled the heavy night winds. Before I could even try and calm her down, she jumped to the floor in a mess of long legs. In her two years of life, Belle has never barked so loud and with such intensity.

The house was dark, and besides Belle’s howling and the drifting whispers of the wind, it was quiet. My parents were vacationing in Mexico, so it was just my two younger siblings and me. Belle’s barking was beyond alarming – she only “speaks” when senses a stranger near by. Because of this, I had the sudden urge to run screaming out of my house, sprint straight to the Mexican border and find my parents. I was willing to risk exposure to the Swine Flu! Anything but face the frightful mean invader of my home sanctuary!

I crawled out of my bed, cursing my first floor bedroom and the oh-so terrible danger it put me in. I tripped over my combat boots and in the last moment decided to slip them on. If need be, I could KICK the robber in the nose, down under, the knees, and the TOES. I was determined to save my dear brother and sister, as well as my own precious life.

Meanwhile, Belle was whimpering in between barks, pushing at my bedroom door and begging to be released so she could attack. I nodded. We were ready. Ready to fight and protect! To kick some ass, you could say.

“One… Two…” I whispered, holding the cold door knob. “THREE!”

I opened the door and Belle darted out into the hallway, sniffing and searching for any sign of true physical evidence. Cowardly and drugged on Benadryl, I wandered out of my bedroom at a slower and more timid pace.

“Madeline?” I called. “Grant? HELLO, ARE YOU GUYS ALIVE?!”

I wander over to the staircase, grasping the banister and swaying with the shadows from the front large windows. There was a light on in my sister’s room, so I yelled again, “Madeline! Maddie! Hellooooooooo! Madds!?!?!”
“What?!” She snapped, popping her head out of her room from upstairs.
“Oh, good. You’re alive.” I sighed. “Where’’s Grant?”
She shrugged. “I dunno. Bed.”
“Okay. Thank goodness. Belle was just… freaking out… It’’s all okay, though!” I insisted to myself.

After checking the bolted lock on the front door and deciding that Belle agreed the house was in control, I wandered back to my bedroom. As I turned the corner and into my pitch black hallway, the man grabbed me by the shoulder and yelled, “AHRAAAHGGGGHH!!”

I cried out in agony, falling backwards into the kitchen as my heart was thrown out of my chest. Sobbing and holding onto an also frightened Belle, I screamed some more. “I’VE ALREADY CALLED 911 DON’T YOU DARE TRY ANYTHING! AHHHGERAWAWWWW! RUN MADELINE, RUN!”

“I so got you!” Grant cheered with a dance, stepping into the light of the kitchen.
I held my chest and ninja kicked the air in front of him. “Just because your now taller and sneakier than me does NOT mean you can attack me in the middle of the night! MEAN MEAN BOY!”
“I scared Heather! I scared Heather!” He sang.
“I thought I was going to DIE!” I screamed, stomping past him and into my room. “You will pay! Just you wait! Years from now… You will pay!”

This occurred two nights ago and I’m tragically STILL shaking from the incident. Obviously I’m a very jumpy person. So… Anyone have any ideas as to how to get back at my 13-year-old brother? ;)

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My Cave of Sanctuary.

May 23rd, 2009

As most of you know, after five months of living on my own in Berkeley, I recently moved back home to Orange County. It wasn’t necessarily a *happy* move, but I REALLY made it an effort to not make it a *sad* move either. One major part of this has been nesting – making my room a place of my own, a place to escape, create, and just breathe. After a month of sprucing it up, I’m thrilled to say that for the most part, my sanctuary is complete and ready to share!

Unfortunately I didn’t take a before photo and I wish I did, as this room went through quite the transformation. Plain beige walls, one single poster, a framed Mormonish photo on the wall, and a brown bed were its prior shame. It was the guest room and a boring one at that. The moment I walked through the door though, I let my energy flood the space!

So, welcome in. No shoes on the bed and please ask before removing a book. ;)

New Room!

So here is the place I attempt to sleep each night. If you know me well enough, you should understand my adoration for dark and soft colors. Somehow – don’t ask me how – I managed to convince my mom that a black wall would uplift me rather then cause depression. And honestly, I love the black. Absolutely love it. It’’s soothing and a wonderful break from the bright California sky.

Also, do note the photo of the Eiffel Tower on the wall. I took it myself in January 2008. I plan to hang another photo beside it, most likely of something scenic from Colorado Springs.

New Room!New Room!

Here we have my library and office area! The books in in the shelf are about half of what I actually own, which is rather ridiculous, I know. I’ve been donating/selling old books all month, so I’m not THAT selfish! Half of the art on the walls is my own work and the other half are cheap, cheap pieces I’ve stumbled upon in France, Italy, and Spain. Now my desk… I’m in LOVE with the desk. I’m actually sitting at it now. I found this piece of beauty in the GOOD WILL pile on my front lawn last month and jumped at it. How could my foolish mother want to give away such a lovely piece of furniture? I don’t even know. But I moved it into my room that day.

If you noticed the teddy bears on my book shelf and desk, well… There’s a certain loving black lab who likes to carry my bears around the house. I keep those two safe from her though, as I’ve had them since my first hospital stay when I was six.

New Room!

The purpose of this photo is to share the artifacts hanging from the fan. There dreamcatcher and nighttime wind chime are up there in honor and inspiration of FALLING INTO YESTERDAY, and to help bring peace. There is also a beautiful glass/steel fairy flying hidden somewhere in the photo. She was a gift from my elder sister, I gift I love greatly.

And… I”ll leave you with a photo of epic cuteness…

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Sun, Sun, Sun.

May 21st, 2009

I interrupt my frenzy of non-blog writing, to announce a little white treasure I found in the clearance section of CVS….

100SPF!

NEUTROGENA SPF 100+!

This is big, guys. BIG! As you can see in the photo*, I have super fair skin. And as you may know, I live in Orange County… AKA, the land above Mexico. The sun is strong here, intense and hot. It doesn’t matter how much sunblock you use, your skin still gets major exposure. In my old bedroom I’d get tan from simply lying in bed.

While I typically only buy all natural vegan skin products, I couldn’t hold back when I saw “SPF 100+”. I skipped around the store and called a fellow pale-skin friend of mine. She lives in San Diego, a bit further south, and was sickly jealous of my find.

I don’t care what the SPF-above-50-skeptics think, I’m thrilled to take the extra leap and use this stuff on my morning hikes and outdoor errands. Trust me, I’ll be thankful for these precautions fifty years from now. ;)

Anyhow, I will now return to my dark cave of writing. New scenes and plot twists for FALLING INTO YESTERDAY are churning out at a rapid speed, which feels absolutely amazing. Do expect more site content on both of my books.

So tell me, what are your opinions on sunscreen?

* Sorry for the photo-fuzz, I was using Photo Booth and the lighting in my room is odd.

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Walking to Serenity.

May 11th, 2009

How is it possible that it’s been twelve days since I last wrote? How did I already spend two weeks here in Orange County? I know I didn’t sleep through it, as I’m cursed with severe insomnia, but I can’t help but wonder where the time went…

It’s been hard. After living on my own in the rainy Bay Area, returning to my family’s house in the desert of southern California has not been an easy dance. There are many things I forgot about my childhood home – good and bad – and it’s been interesting rediscovering the emotions that my family brings out.

The number one thing that has helped me most with my move has been hiking. I live on the edge of Orange County, literally right next to an 8000 acre protected wilderness park and bird sanctuary. My family is blessed with access to a trail that runs through the preserved land – a trail that I believe eventually leads to Laguna Beach.

Anyway, I’ve become addicted to the hike. The land that surrounds me when I get deep into the hike is mesmerizing. Despite the rollings hills being dry as a desert, they are not at all lacking absolute beauty. I’m able to finally find peace on these walks.

cactusCaspers Park

I’m not the only one who enjoys the trail, my Belle baby was in absolute heaven the two different times I brought her along.

Belle

Anyway, now that I’ve fully nested into my new (and old) home, I can FINALLY get back to my full time favorite pass time and job: writing! I’m working on a revision for FALLING INTO YESTERDAY and I’m ridiculously excited for the new content and plot twists I’ll be adding. I can’t wait to share the updated manuscript with a few of my readers. :)

Have a great week!

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Dreamy Cookies.

April 29th, 2009

Last week (it feels like last year!), I tweeted something about a batch of life-changing cookies I’d stirred up and a few of you of requested the recipe. So… here it is. I was kind of hesitant to post this only because it calls for a specific brand of dark chocolate peanut butter that is not typically sold in most stores (unless you happen to live in Berkeley). But I’m assuming the recipe will work fine with normal peanut butter as well. I also recommend you throw in some chocolate chips for yummy points. AND if you happen to see the dark chocolate peanut butter in your store, BUY IT! It’s so good.

This recipe is whole wheat, vegan, and just plain awesome.

nom nom nom

Chocolate Peanut Butter Cookies.

1/3 cup unsweetened applesauce.
3/4 cup brown sugar.
1 cup Peanut Butter & Co Dark Chocolate Dreams.
1 teaspoon vanilla extract.
1 cup whole wheat pastry flour.
1/2 teaspoon baking powder.
pinch of salt.
1/4 cup non dairy milk.

1. Preheat over to 350F. Lightly grease 2 cookie sheets.
2. Mix together applesauce, sugar, peanut butter, and vanilla until creamy and smooth.
3. Add flour, baking powder, and salt. Mix well. Slowly add in milk two tablespoons at a time, mixing until you reach a good cookie dough consistency – firm but moist, not too crumby.
4. Drop by rounded tablespoons onto prepared pans, about 2 inches apart. Flatten with a fork dipped in water. Make the cute crisscross shape if you feel the need. Bake for about 12 minutes!
5. Enjoy with a cool glass of soy milk.

Makes about 24 cookies.

In other news, I’m no longer a Berkeley resident. I moved down to Orange County over the weekend and have been spending my first few days back organizing my new room. Fun stuff, I guess. I miss the bay area already, but I’m making do. Seeing the good out of the bad and all that lovely positive out look stuff.

Anyway, hopefully I’ll become more active again in a week or so – once I’m settled in.

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A Bit of a Ramble.

April 20th, 2009

Have I mentioned that Hannah is amazing? Because she totally is. Not only did Hannah help me get my layout back up on my Wordpress, BUT she also explained what she did in such a simple, beautiful manner that I think I’ll be able to fix whatever glitch I make next time around. Hopefully, at least.

Anyhow, having that terrible generic Wordpress page up for a few days inspired me to make a new layout! About time, right? I’m actually really proud of it. It features a photo I captured last Wednesday in Colorado Springs. And, to add an even greater personal touch, the header font is my handwriting!

About a month ago I decided to make a few personal fonts for the copies of A Fear of Tears I give out to friends. The novel features quite a bit of Post-It notes, so I figured it’d be fun to make each character’s font unique. ANYWAY, I wound up using Hayden’s (or, er, my) font for the new site header! It makes me giggle, because I’m a bit of a nerd.

But yes, I only have FireFox installed on my laptop, so I’m not sure what the layout looks like in other browsers. Let me know if there’s anything funny going on. I know the header is a bit large/long, but whatever. I like it. :)

In other news, I’ve returned to Berkeley. My departure from Colorado was rather epic, as an inane blizzard made the I-25 icy and nasty and scary and slippery and dangerous to drive on. Needless to say, the trip up to Denver was a bit nerve racking, but Fayie is amazing and still managed to get me to the airport with an hour to spare.

I-25 wonderland
Somewhere in between Colorado Springs & Denver.

California is currently having a rather ridiculous heat wave (97F in Orange County/86F in Berkeley), so my body is in a bit of a temperature shock. If anything though, the physical discomfort is keeping me from noticing how much I miss Fayie, all of my other friends, and Colorado in general. The ten days passed by FAR too quickly.

To add to my mental/physical/everything craziness, I move out of my Northern CA studio and back down to my family’s house in Orange County this weekend. I have a lot of mixed (mostly negative) feelings about it, but I’m trying to stay positive. It is what it is and I’m going to make the best of it.

The pros of living back at home in Southern CA:

  • I get to be with my babies Belle & Leo 24/7!

  • Being able to drive my amazing Mini Cooper again! I MISS driving!
  • Being with my family, obviously.
  • Being near the few friends I have down there.
  • Having my own bedroom and bathroom – not having to share a studio.
  • Being able to save money in preparation to move to Colorado in the next year.
  • Living in a nice house with a pool/spa & outdoor fireplace.
  • Getting to cook is a wonderfully large kitchen again and prepare meals/baked good for more mouths then my own. I HATE cooking single serving meals. xD

I’m not going to list the cons of the OC, but focus on the pros. And the pros really are great! So it’s okay! My time in Berkeley has been absolutely incredible, but the moment has come for this chapter to close.

Anyhow. I really need to begin packing up my studio. Fun stuff!

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My Bad.

April 17th, 2009

Please ignore the mess. I kind of made a boo boo and hurt a few files on my website. Things will be looking normal and beautiful again soon. I promise! Hopefully!

In the mean time, visit Hannah as she’s an angel and heatherezell.com would be a DISASTER if it weren’t for her.

booyah

Now I shall go return to enjoying the last two days of my time in Colorado. Watch out world, I have a camera and I”m not afraid to use it!

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Heather. Seventeen-year-old unpublished author. Orange County native. High raw vegan. Avid reader. Travel addict. Bracelet maker. Lover of rain, mountains, and moody oceans. A firm believer that a day is not productive without hours of writing involved. The girl who dances alone in corners.

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